I see you there.
I see how you are trying to do it all– be a good wife, mom, sister and daughter.
-Teach your kids well.
-Stay close to your husband so that your marriage is strong.
-Be there for your siblings.
-Accommodate your parents, even when it feels exhausting.
-Remember to pray, do scripture study and get to the temple “regularly.”
Relationships are important! Families are forever!
But sometimes you just want to hide or run away. (Not for real, just in your fantasy.) It feels like a heavy burden some days.
“People should be more important that stuff.”
And people are more important, you’re just forgetting a really important person in the equation of people and stuff.
I know– that feels selfish.
We are socialized so hard on not being selfish, that when we do something for ourselves, we think we are being selfish.
Is it selfish that your daughter wants to keep doing gymnastics?
Or that your son enjoys baseball?
Or that your husband trains for that tough mudder?
Is it selfish that your parents want to take a trip for their anniversary and you won’t be celebrating with them?
Is it selfish that your sister and her husband are taking a trip and leaving their kids with you again?
No! None of these things are selfish. They are just preferences. Desires.
So how about it?
Your desires and preferences and needs are just as important as everyone else’s.
If you are feeling resentful, it is because in your mind, you are putting yourself as not as important. And because that isn’t true, it feels terrible.
So make yourself important.
It’s already the truth, you just gotta give yourself permission to start living it.
So what is it you would do just for you? (And let’s just pretend you don’t have to worry about money in this situation, ‘kay?)
Make time to write? Hire a house cleaner? Get a massage? Get back to dancing?
Dream big! Be honest!
Okay, so how can you do it? What’s getting in your way?
I know, you don’t have money for it. That’s the biggest complaint.
There’s a difference between making a temporary sacrifice and restricting your life.
I mean, what’s the purpose of your money if it’s not to pay for things that make life a meaningful life?
Sure, there are “necessities” like food, water and heat. I get that.
But if your finances are able to pay for anything beyond necessities, but you are miserable, then what’s the point?
And what if, by spending on that thing that will make you come alive, you can actually CREATE money for your family?
I know it might seem absurd, but when you are happy, you have less need for other things.
I just want you to think about it. What if you could afford it?
And the same holds true for time.
What if by taking better care of yourself, you actually create time in your life?
It could happen.
First, believe that you can find a way to make it work.
Second, love yourself enough to do it.
Third, go do it.
Go on. Don’t wait for me! Go be YOU!
Your life coach